... do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised. For in just a very little while,
"He who is coming will come and will not delay.
But my righteous one will live by faith.
And if he shrinks back,
I will not be pleased with him." But we are not of those who shrink back and are destroyed, but of those who believe and are saved.
I am a believer... I believe GOD turned my life around, and postioned me to face him... because He loves me and I love him.
It seems easy to run and be defeated and comfortable, I look at some other people and their lives and I think there is really no turning back, they have come to far in their faith to turn back, but it is a daily choice to walk in that, and in the anointing... Sometimes I wonder what God truly has for me and I get caught up in the all the decisions there are to get to where HE wants me... but I remember I have to stand tall in today or I can never stand tall in tomorrow...I was listening to a teaching on Jonah and being disobedient.... He knew that the trip to Nineveh would be long and hard, and then when he got there the tasks would be even more terrifying... so He ran... Why? Why do I do this? When I know that ultimately what I want for me is not even near as GREAT as what GOD has for me when I obey and follow him....
F E A R...
Why do I complicate my life with decisions based on fear?
Just do what He asks, and lay down in green pastures?
I have found that I am addicted to people pleasing, self pleasing, and pity parties...
I want to be all that God has planned for me.....this takes time, I am not a finished work...
I must slow down in the moment, obey his Word, make decisions based on perseverance and going forward in God, not in myself....
I will walk forward in perseverance, laying down myself, all the insecurities and yearning for approval, all the mistakes and heart-brakes, and the broken relationships and bad decisions, all the frustration and anxiety, all of the anger and disbelief, all of the curses and lies of the devil, all of the negative thoughts and agreements over my life, I let go of the fear that hurt will diminish me.....
He is all that can remain...Jesus, my El Shaddai
Praise you Jesus for you are the WORD made Flesh, and I that can feel you when I am lonely, and be proud of myself because You have formed me, and are crafting me to be a unique piece of art, though it may be an abstract piece now, but soon, very soon there will a definition that comes out and the true stature will be evident... Work on me from the inside out, dig out the parts that are wrong and take your wisdom imparted hands to my life and mend the tiny fibers of my being to want your will in my life and territory...
Thank you, Father that you are an active, present, and protective Dad... I pray I always walk in your presence for all eternity...
~E
